Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Bloglines

For the few of you who still read my blog, I thought I'd s hare this site with you. In case you aren't familiar with it, Bloglines is a site that allows you to subscribe to many different blogs and other feeds all from one place. It's free so you should check it out if you get a chance. Makes keeping up a lot easier. Click the link below if you're interested in checkingit out.

It's The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year - To Be Sick!!

One thing I've always been able to tell about myself is that when I am sick, I feel just that--sick. Well last night I had a very delightful experience beginning at 2:40 AM. Yesterday I'd been feeling pretty achy and decided to come home right after work to sleep, yet I wasn't even sleepy once I got home so I just lay on the couch all night. At 8, I at the Papa John's pizza that had been delivered to me. I finished that off at 8 and continued to lay around until I finally fell asleep at 12:30 AM. Well, little did I know it was all just getting started. The next thing I know I am running through my house at around 2:40 yelling for someone to help me. I'm really not sure what I was needing help from or who I was asking since no one was here except that I seem to recall thinking I was choking. I then began to get that foreboding feeling that I was going to soon begin my favorite pastime of vomiting. It was the most odd feeling though because I didn't completely feel awful--I just felt strange and VERY disoriented. I then proceeded to dry-heave two times which especially caught me off-guard considering that I still felt pretty full from eating before and usually (at least I thought) dry-heaving comes from not having anything in your stomach. Apparently not.

Another interesting thing was how I then tried to go get a glass of water but I couldn't keep the water in the glass due to my hands shaking so badly. It was at this point that I really started to freak out (partly due to feeling bad and partly due to the fact that I was very disoriented and still slightly asleep) and I kind of felt like I may start choking--on what I have no idea, but that's what I thought. So I tried to call Kat and she didn't answer and then I called Thankins and she did. So I guess I got to freak her out pretty good because I think my jabbering was quite incoherent. I'm really not even sure why I called since I didn't really need anything but I was just losing it.

I finally managed to settle down but I couldn't lay down since when I did I felt like I was going to throw up, so I sat on my couch from 4 AM until 9 AM when I decided to lay down. Of course I emailed work early to let them know I wasn't coming in. I don't care how bad I feel, I always feel guilty about calling in sick. I'm not sure what it is. The whole morning I felt so guilty for not going in but when I would stand up I'd then realize why I didn't feel like going in. It was also interesting that even though I'd only slept about 3 hours the whole night, I still didn't manage to fall asleep until after 10 and then slept until 3.

[On a side note I'm about to go crazy from being in my house for over 24 straight hours so I finally got my butt up and just finished putting away the dishes and canned foods that have been sitting in boxes in my kitchen since the end of September. Don't even tell me I don't do things in a timely manner.]

Well I need to see if I can actually get some food down so I'm going to go see about that. You know something must be wrong if I take this long to post on my blog!!!

Sunday, November 28, 2004

Thornton Knows Best

Workin on OK: Why Do I....

As I sit here on Sunday afternoon, I've really been in a funk lately. My life has been so empty and my walk with God has just sucked, to be frank. I go through these stupid ruts so often it seems like and it is just so frustrating. I don't even have the words to describe it....and then I came across Eric's blog which seemed to express what I've been feeling in a lot of ways. Granted I didn't go to a retreat and didn't speak to a group of adolescents but you get my meaning hopefully. Thanks Eric for sharing your thoughts....

Tuesday, November 23, 2004


Back off!! Posted by Hello

Bats!!



Well I've been neglecting my blogadociously blodadocious blog but I thought I should unmute my thoughts and share with you this lovely picture of bats. I had the fortune last week of taking a tour of the Alabster Caverns in northwest Oklahoma. If you've never had the opportunity to visit the caverns you are definitely missing out, especially this time of year because of all the bats that take up residence to hibernate. I almost had one bat smash into my face, but due to his echolocation he noticed my noggin and darted away. It was so awesome. I had never almost been hit in the head by a bat.




I took the tour with a mother and son from Stillwater, Ann and Jim (pictured left), and it turned out to be really nice b/c our tour guide Kim (pictured right) was really laid back and we didn't have to fight with a lot of crowds--just bats. Have I mentioned I almost got hit in the face by a bat? Well if you get a chance to check out the caverns I'd hightly recommend it. I'd also hightly recommend my bed. I'm headed there now.